I wished i could give up .

Yesterday woke up at 730am , was freaking unwell . but no choice since i've already made an appointment w enbei & promised to work for aunty alice . so prepared then called bei when im leaving hse . I was so giddy and blur so boarded the WRONG bus like wtf -.- should take 185 but i took 193 instead. when i saw the bus went to a diff direction i jitao shock . Then i quickly called bei told her but she misunderstood me . she thought i told her i was reaching but she nvr saw the bus . Quickly alighted at pm thr . Walked t the bus stop where enbei's at .

Reached cps , was late . Signed in at the guestbook and saw simon's name ! then i shock lo.  walked t the bookshop thr, then started selling books ~ blabla . until around noon , ate friedrice w hotdog ^^ mummy made the hotdogs enbei's mum cooked the friedrice . hehe . VERY NICE (Y) afterwards it rained . wow i luv the rain ^^  so no customers came . Okay know a girl working w us called jolene ^^ hehe shes ahem ahem :x  SECRET ! well haha nice to meet her lah (:  Slacked lo whole afternoon SHIOK AH ! then ended at 3pm . Aunty gave us our pay then can go alr . walked t busstop took 157 t jp . haha . was raining , kept playing water w simon lo . he splash me i splash back and enbei too :p

Reached jp send enbei t her bus , then meet jluvz09^^  went xcraft got my helix ! omg ! i like ! haiz ... bought earrings then chatted w the girl thr . hmm kept sneezing then the john offered me tissue ! haha kind him ^^  went to eat kfc for dinner . haha was served by sandy , i asked her again whr did we met . she also forgot but we just did met before jiu shi le . Finished , went library help that TROUBLESOME girl find her books . ite she borrowed one only ! tsk ah ! Then helped enbei borrowed cirque du freak 10 & 11 . Prize stages to catch softtoys but cant T.T  xcraft again and the person helped me poke my right ear 3rd hole , the one i released . Poke until super long also cant , i beared w the pain lo . then john chu ma , can alr ! went t look for mummy , argh . she saw and nagged abt my helix . well train home afterwards .

Mummy told me to fucking take out my helix or not call my dad -.-  fuck lah -'- First day pierce ask me take out . wtf wtf wtf . I HATE HER . so took out no choice T.T  pain like fuck !  walao fucking heart break leh althought its just a hole in my bone . LOL . tskkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk !!! sister can i cannot -.-  BIASED JIU SHI BIASED . like a dog only -'-

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Today woke up @ 1noon . prepared then walked t jwss thr de 7-11 meet falysha . reached , falysha havent came so sat down & chatted on phone w laogong . Then went to buy cookies ^^ hehe ate though sorethroat. BTH ah !  Was eating so happily then a bird sat infront of me . one of its leg broken :x the bird so scary lo keep look & me and my cookie . i jitao walked away , then went i was looking ard for falysha , suddenly the bird was behind me ! wtf i ran away lo . so walked back cuz i thought falysha wasnt coming . while i was alr at my blk , falysha called me . i went back again ! met her , bought slurpee then home . help her download songs . ohh her brother was w us too . they left @ 430 . then jluvz09 came to chat w me awhile ^^



Wow so wordy . no pictures to post . SIAN .

I need you .

i  realised i really need you boy ...

Woke up @ 745am . was effing tired + not feeling well ! Flu sorethroat cough . mummy still pulled me to church )): So prepared then cabbed to church . I love today's opening song ! ^^ hehe very meaningful ahh . After mass, bused t jp . Ate @ banquet and headed for work . Sat thr waited for auntie angela cuz didnt bring back the key ystd . Sales was very bad , until afternoon 12++ only sold one pathetic watch :x  afterwards customers started to come then heng ar . really can fall asleep sia . Actually supposed t work til 4pm but extended til 6pm . ended work , took my pay for this week then home! 

tmrw working @ bookshop . must reach CPS 8plus OMG . simon told me ystd that tmrw only me & enbei selling the books . wa surely busy die us ~ hehehe . CHOU carol keep changing the number of persons . let simon & gengjie come bu shi hao lo ! i want them to come to make me LOL . haha . Ohyah simon randomly called me ystd night , & chatted for 1hr . he keep pyscho me go bukit panjang plaza work at kfc. actually thr better than jp seriously . but im not gonna go work kfc again . & yeah , working at watch shop til next year march . which means schl reopen i still have to work on weekends  = $$$ fly in my wallet . haha ^^

alrights , enough of crap . 

I love Jamie . Jamie loves me :)

Im helping the lazy pig to post :P  LAZY PIG

Today went to open shop at 11am work till 3pm. Enbei reached at 3pm sharp but Auntie Janet havent come yet so i called her. When she came, i passed her the money then faster go The Blues and get my 3rd hole pierced. Toilet immediately to get changed into my KFC uniform, then rushed to KFC. The manager came, so we told her that we want to quit after 3 days of training. So the manager told us that we can go home already. Then went toilet to change back to my home clothes. Enbei accompanied me walk around to look for my school bag. Went to find mummy next, got my sushi and home! :)


YAY, I'M DONE POSTING FOR THAT PIG. I LOVE THIS PIG VERY VERY VERY MUCH :D
Talking on the phone with her :) Nothing to say anymore . BYEBYE :D

24th ; 

25th ; 

yesterday went enbei's house to photocopy our bank book then met lover at pm . her sister was w her too . walked to central to meet yuxuan , and she brought us to her friend's house to collect our 8k ! Super heavy lo! So me & lover each took 3k while enbei took 2k . Bused t pioneer station , trained to bukitbatok . Lover was having gastric so i suggested eating lunch first (:  After lunch , headed to 400+ there to distribute . throw alot lor , letter box also spam quite alot .  After 5blks , lover went to her boyfriend's house . while me & enbei continue distributing .. Finished , called lover then went back first w bei . Bused straight back to jp then train back to my hse ^^ Took a bathe , rested , prepared & headed to kfc for work . super fucking tired i swear , i stand for like almost 5hours never sit -.- while bei got to rest ! then closing , washed the trays for the whipped & coleslaw . unlike bei need wash so much thing :P i helped her ite i got to help esther to do the softdrinks thingy . haha so she waited for me , then bus home ! reached home @ almost 12mn .

As for today , i dont know whether im working or not . texted ladyboss ytd bus she didnt reply me til now -.- wonder still need go work not lo . wtf . supposed t meet jluvz09 but she cant . so cancelled ! what shld i do then ? wtf lifeless lah .

Annyeong^^

today slept at 5am & woke up at 11am which was 6hours of sleep only ! T.T  im effing tired seriously . deardear called me to chat for 3hrs 50mins 39secs lo ! pro lah . first time i chat w him for so long lor . Prepared then waited for laogong's call . Met her @ coffeeshop then makan lunch ! hehe . I eat super slow lor , then 1230 meet lover ^^ Trained t je then bukit batok . lover keep want buy bbt but we cant find , so instead we went seven eleven and bought slurpeeeeeee .

Afterwards walk t dk what blk ah , wanted to distribute flyers thr but WE WALK ONE BIG ROUND cannot find the lift -.-  ite decided to distribute at blk 642 . fiinished that blk , we put in the letter box . pro us , go put alot inside one . heh mr ong know cfm die one .. Then mr ong told lover to distribute at blk 330 . we dk how go -.- we bused thr . hmm started distributing at blk 329 , followed by 330 331 , 333 , 334 , 335 , 336 . We couldnt find 322 so we skipped . we skipped one levels everytime , hehe . some units rear dogs , wtf sia . bark then scare the hell wits out of me lah -.- i jitao scream or run away lo . the last blk , is like one dog bark , the other units de also . machiam whole blk de dogs barking liddat .  BTW , the pple living at bukit batok all so guailan one lor . 1k flyers 3ppl share , 8blks . TML DIE LIAO . taking another 8k more! the leftovers we bring home mwhahahahah . Supposed t bus back t bukit batok ite we alighted at bukit gombak . Then westmall , walk around . Hmmm and did my cute little letter V ! lover say i childish ):  kk then macdonalds , ate fries .

Finally trained back to jp , bused back w laogong (:  supposed t meet benjamin after work , but never .cuz he didnt text me which idk why ..

tmrw meeting lover & laogong to go get flyers , then straight go bukitbatok distribute .. then 6 to 11 working at kfc . sure gonna be fucking tired tmrw really -.-

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Peektures soon when lover update her blog .

Jluvz09 came over to my house , then headed to jp (:  kopitiam to get our desserts then walk around .. The blues next to pierce my 3rd hole followed my jluvz09's 2nd hole . Hehe pain ahh this time dk why !! maybe diff pple pierce diff bah .. Then xcraft to get pill studs , toilet to put . Afterwards went to find auntie angela tell her something hahahah funny lah jluvz09 . she say i bluff her )):  talktalk for awhile ..

Met enbei @ 3pm , haha promised jluvz09 to send her to mrt but ite never . im so sorry really ! idk enbei so early come . paisehhhh ):  afterwards headed to kfc , get our uniforms & toilet to get changed . hahha omg super weird lahh at first !! we keep look in the mirrow keep say " omg the shirt so big ah ! " Done changing , went back . Then a guy call zengyong briefed us about where are the things kept blabla . let us read the history everything thingyy. hmmm , menu stuffs etcetc . MOST IMPORTANT OF ALL , the 4 moments of truth . Rested awhile and assigned us to a partner . my partner was esther ^^ hehe found out shes my schoolmate's sister ! SUCH A CONCIDENCE EH ! she taught me abt the cashier how to take orders everything . So i helped her pack the foods , take orders && give change t customers. can say quite fun lahh ! but must really becareful lorr . Anyw the workers there all beli friendly (Y) Ended @ 7pm , got one free meal ! So tried the black paper chicken ohmygawd SPICY ! haha . Hmmph going t work on this thurs night again .

Tmrw going flyer distribution w lover (:

 Was talking on phone w falysha then enbei go snap !

Enbei covered her bbt w books incase kena caught.

Today met up w enbei @ pioneer mrt. Train to chinese garden , then walk to je thr . Got my Venus & Jupiter old de pe shirt ^^ Afterwards train to je , library then . 3pm trained back to jp , & went for our KFC interview !! hehe passed . tmrw going down to collect uniform . hehe yay ^^  which means i've got 3jobs currently . ohmygawdz . Need to wear black shoes so went to walk ard and find . but nope jp dont have . bused to 9heads thr , and found ! alot but is either not nice or ex . Ite found one , well so bought it though the price aint any cheap . No choice , i just hope i would continue working til 6months in kfc. Theres orientation & trainings (:  so i do hope everything is that hard or tiring .

Meeting jluvz09 @ 1pm , to pierce my 3rd hole & her 2nd hole ((:  then meet enbei @ 3pm to go kfc collect our uniform and orientation i think ..

Alrights annyeong (:

Hohoho hiez ^^  worked @ watch shop on friday yesterday & today . tiring i swear ! but bobian for the sake of $$$ lol . not money face just that im in need of the money to get my school stuffs .

Friday , went to take passport photo w mummy at gekpoh then headed for work . 4hours i luv my sales though never hit target . yesterday worked 8.5hours only didnt work til 10hrs fully cuz seriously can fall asleep . today attended 9am mass ,i almost fell asleep in the mass . & i swear its fucking cold inside -.- buaytahan lor . After mass , headed to jp . ate breakfast cum lunch @ E.A.T then work ! today work til 630 , then meet sanyi . Go makan at kopitiam ^^ uncle was expecting i will treat them cuz i got my pay for this week . haha . Ite is they treat me :p ate alot !! afterwards went to walk ard to dijest our food. Arcade next ^^ Spam bball w cuzzie , he keep dont let me play lor jiu play alone . Then he go spam his initialD , i played once jiu dw play liao .Walk ard , then home @ 9++ .

Meeting enbei tmrw to go je get my schl pe shirt then back to jp by 4 for our interview at kfc (;  hope it goes well & they accept us . i really want the experience & $$ . hehe .

Yayness im getting my 3rd ear hole pierced on either tues or wed probably w jluvz09 . she also piercing her 2nd right ear hole . helix im waiting for loverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr ~ ((:

Okay thats all . im really tired gotta go & rest . bbye .

Hiez. today met laogong , went to look for job . so we applied job at kfc ((:  the manager can say quite kind . hehe. Sat down & fill up the application form w laogong ((; hahahah she super funny lah . her father's occupation she go write housewife ;p cuz she wrote wrongly !!! hahaha laughdieme sia , if i never tell her she also dontknow. Afterwards headed to ljs to have lunch (:  walk ard afterwards , the blues to get alcohol & earstuds . xcraft , bought earring w laogong ! chatted w the lady , argh she keep want to physco me pierce helix lo . haha next time waiting for lover to pierce tgt ^^ frontier next since nth to do , then i kept yawning non-stop , laogong also so decided to go home . walk t ard schl thr de bus stop , took 193 home .

Currenlty talking to jluvz09 on the phone ((:  hehe shes sick )):  get well soon lah !! drink plenty of water ok! hehe im waiting for you to go kbox hor !!

kk bbyes (:

Let me treat this as a dream okay ?

I luv my friends <3 hehe . 

they never fail to make me smile whenever im feeling down . they will always be the one being by my side leading me the correct way to go . I've decided to not go into a r/s for now , until i've fully erased all my past relationships. i just realised & told benjamin'hubby that i havent even forget my previous ex whom i used to crush on since primary1. Its been so long already , yet i still havent forget, unbelievable yeah?  i dont wanna hurt any other innocent people ):  im not fit to be with anyone now , cuz im just a ______ ( fill in yourself ) . I dont wanna make this mistake over again and again . im already trying to make it up , but yet ):  i regretted much .  

Today woke up @ 11am , prepared & head to lover's house ^^ Went to buy tibits @ giant ^^  then went macdonalds makan. hahaha i almost cannot finish my lunch becuz of LOVER !! haha . then back to lover's house watch horrow movie  !! hahahah , tell you super scary lor ! I still watch so close somemore . Cuz i bravebrave (Y) hehe !! Overall quite nice lah the movie . then her sister came in, chatchat & i know lover's little secrets :P haha lol. around 4, went jp to get lover's tongue studs . toilet to put then train to pioneer (: pei her go wait for her family then meet jluvz09 for lunch ! home afterwards .

kk bbye.

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Lover's photography skills cmi ah !! hahha cuz she never take me )):  haha lol !

anyw i luv her beli beli much <3 

Its like 2+ am now , and im still awake plus i dont felt like sleeping . But i gotta wake up @ 11 tmrw and meeting lover at 12 for lunch !! Confirm i keep yawn one lor :P currently facebook-ing with nadhirah & her friend, Redarus ^^ Hehe i luv nad alot for listening to me <3  i luv midnight chats w her <3  well the both of them are make me laugh my ass off seriously .

haiz im feeling so confused now really ):  boy , i tried loving you . tried giving you my best . but i dont think i can make it . I dont wanna repeat my mistake again and again. & i dont suits to be with you seriously , i aint the girl . i know you know how i feels right now , but i  guess i shouldnt be in another r/s for now , after this hurtful r/s i had. becuz i know i wont treat it so seriously anymore. I shouldnt hurt anyone like how my past r/s had hurt me . i hope you understand this (:  thanks for telling me that you will be there for me , & heal my wounds . i appreciated everything you told me . 

If one day you notice that we haven't talked in a while, 

it's not because I don't care anymore, it's because you pushed me away.

" You don't need to pretend you're strong. Sometimes, crying will help you smile in the end. "

When i told jluvz09 i wanted t cry this afternoon, cuz i was really feeling so awful . she told me this , i cried & i felt tons better ((:  hehe thanks! 

Annyeonghaseyo ^^  

ECP trip today w clique !! Met @ 10am , headed to arcade for neoprints ((: took twice haha so got more .

since its first time our whole clique took tgt . After neos , went xcraft and ask the lady to help me take out earring ;p cuz buaytahan alr !! Bought alcohol too. Minitoons next to get shades , since its on promotion . afterwards off we go ! Trained to bedok , then bus 197 & walk to ecp . Went to rent bike ^^ 1hr free 2hrs leyy! $6 only lo. Ride to macdonalds , bought lunch and eat first . Then off we go riding ~~ hahah tell you , enbei dk how ride lo atfirst! she super slow lahhhh ! haha , she always behind us one NEVER FAIL . so gotta stop & wait for her . Return bike @ ard 5 , went to play at the sand. haha my slipper almost got wash off the sea lo ! decided to go home , bcuz falysha must reach home by 6 ):  So we left ecp , cabbed home! All kup money tgt , i paid $12 bei $13 nad $2 falysha $2 . haha which means all my money flyflyfly like a bird ~ LOL. alighted at jp taxi stand , then nad was super thirsty like she fasting liddat!! i left $2 so we bought a big gulp & 4 of us share !! We walk back home , nad went her way , send falysha til blss thr , me and bei walk til busstop and pei-ed my wait for my bus & reached home ard 7++  before home, went jluvz09 to pass her stuffs ((: 

Exchanged skirt w falysha alr ^^ but nad havent ! cuz her skirt so dirty !! hahaha . ltr mummy scold so cant )):   

Lastly , Happy birthday to my thailand buddy , KHAIMUK ^^   we're supposed to go thailand this holiday but sadly no which i dontknow why )):  I really miss you mim kwan & the boys alot !! Hope we can go thai soon , hope the school oraganises this faster. 

byebye ((: